Sometimes life gets hard, like it really gets hard, and your not sure how to keep going.
But you know what Jesus DIED, and that man STILL kept on going and kept on living.
I know we go through things other people wont understand, or we have those days when everything possible seems to go wrong and you can't even get mad you just cry.
But the next day, when your oh say standing at the kitchen... sink with that heart ache from yesterday creeping up again, just close your eyes and tell God you trust him.
I trust you Lord, I know you know what your doing, and I know I have to go through this for a reason. I may not understand it today, or tomorrow but one day I will, and if I can get through this without being angry or freaking out like normal, if I have to just cry through it because I don't know what else to do and I refuse to get angry or scream and holler. Then I'll just cry because at the end of the day those tears saved me from doing and saying things I would regret later.
God is always here through the good AND the bad, even though it seems He is MIA when those bad times hit, He's actually closer than ever and He's waiting for us to fall into His lap and let it all out so He can do something even bigger for us.
All He wants you to do is trust in Him. And sometimes He will test your faith and test how much you trust Him. He is our greatest Teacher.
But you know what Jesus DIED, and that man STILL kept on going and kept on living.
I know we go through things other people wont understand, or we have those days when everything possible seems to go wrong and you can't even get mad you just cry.
But the next day, when your oh say standing at the kitchen... sink with that heart ache from yesterday creeping up again, just close your eyes and tell God you trust him.
I trust you Lord, I know you know what your doing, and I know I have to go through this for a reason. I may not understand it today, or tomorrow but one day I will, and if I can get through this without being angry or freaking out like normal, if I have to just cry through it because I don't know what else to do and I refuse to get angry or scream and holler. Then I'll just cry because at the end of the day those tears saved me from doing and saying things I would regret later.
God is always here through the good AND the bad, even though it seems He is MIA when those bad times hit, He's actually closer than ever and He's waiting for us to fall into His lap and let it all out so He can do something even bigger for us.
All He wants you to do is trust in Him. And sometimes He will test your faith and test how much you trust Him. He is our greatest Teacher.
Sometimes we don't understand why God allows us to go through the things we do. I had one of those days Wednesday where seriously everything went wrong, I literally felt like God was letting the devil attack me over and over. I mean all the way up until I went to bed things just kept going wrong, it was almost like a bad movie and I was like seriously?? And all I wanted to do all day was just scream and holler and throw things. But instead I cried and I mean I cried hard because I didn't know what else to do, I cried so hard I didn't want to have the strength to get angry or want to scream. I cried while praying my rosary, I cried myself to sleep. But as I said all those tears saved me from doing and saying things I would regret, and I feel like in some areas I passed a major test. And it feels good now. Yesterday I just cleaned house, I kept myself busy all day so I wouldn't have time to think of the day before and everything that happened, and I prayed as I went, and I survived the day.
Today I am back to normal, and life is going on as usual, I am a mother and a wife, and I cannot take time out to feel sorry for myself for anything. It was hard for me not to sit around and mope yesterday because that's what I would normally do. I give full credit to God and my amazing guardian angel for keeping me going, and today I feel stronger and everything that happened is much easier to let go of, say it is what it is and now I keep on going. That's not something that's easy for me to do, that's why I have to give all the credit to God and my guardian angel, also my awesome Blessed Mother, without them I wouldn't be able to do it. But I asked them for comfort and for strength and they gave it to me. How lucky I am to have that relationship with them, to know I can ask for their help and they will come to me.
Today I am back to normal, and life is going on as usual, I am a mother and a wife, and I cannot take time out to feel sorry for myself for anything. It was hard for me not to sit around and mope yesterday because that's what I would normally do. I give full credit to God and my amazing guardian angel for keeping me going, and today I feel stronger and everything that happened is much easier to let go of, say it is what it is and now I keep on going. That's not something that's easy for me to do, that's why I have to give all the credit to God and my guardian angel, also my awesome Blessed Mother, without them I wouldn't be able to do it. But I asked them for comfort and for strength and they gave it to me. How lucky I am to have that relationship with them, to know I can ask for their help and they will come to me.
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