A little but about my past and how I got here today

     Unfortunately to get to where I am today I had to get very close to the devil. And it is not a place I ever hope to go back to. That is the unfortunate part because I also can hear the devil and he is someone no one ever wants to be able to speak and talk to. But through the Grace of God and His amazing Love He saved me from that horrible place I was at, and He speaks to me and tells me messages to tell people. Just things people need to hear and need to know, so that they can have a deeper relationship with Him as well.

    I told God I wanted to help people find their way back to Him and I didn't really know at the time what I was getting myself into because now my life is one big roller coaster and I am trying very hard to balance being a wife, a mother, a business owner and spreading God's messages. But I am getting the hang of it, and little by little I'm learning how to prioritize things making God my number one of course. If you put God first he will put everything else into place as long as you trust and have strong faith in him.

 

A Rebel Child

 

     I believed in God to the point of I knew I had to if I wanted to go to heaven. I was the rebel child who constantly lied to my parents, snuck out all the time. Just completely disrespected them and myself and everyone in my family. Right before I turned seventeen, I moved out of my parents house and into a home with people I barely knew. But they accepted me and loved me like a child and I was happy. I ended up back at my parents eventually but still wasn't on good terms with them. Just always tried my best not to be home to even deal with them.

    Right before the end of my senior year, I met my now husband. Seven years in total we have been together and we have been through it all, we've had some really bad times, done a lot of things we were not proud of our whole lives each of us before we met, and after we met. We've had a really rough relationship, lots of break ups, split ups. But in all those dark times, we still loved each other with everything that we had. We could just never fully let go of one another. I have said once that it was like God had left a little night light on in our darkest of times so we could always find our way back to each other. Boy oh Boy I had no idea how true that was (I'll get to that later).

   Through out all are years we attended church off and on, we now have two children, two boys to be exact, I like to think of them as my wild things lol. Wild thing number one is now five and is in his first year of school, and wild thing number two will be 2 this July. I am a stay at home mommy which I am very fortunate because my husband does not have a good job, so in reality were getting by slowly, but with God's grace He has been fortunate enough to always let us make it, even before we became so strong in our faith. Now that is true love for His children, because even when we weren't really practicing our faith and just saying prayers hear and there, He always heard them and always answered. So now looking back I see how lucky we are to be here and still be getting by, it could ALWAYS be worse. The little we have we now appreciate because there are people who always have it worse. So just by taking every breath we do, and waking up every morning and having our children and our home, and food in the cabinets and fridge. We truly are so blessed that we have these things.

God's first sign

    Some few months ago my husband comes to me and tells me our nephew, his brother's
son (also his godchild) has started seeing spirits. Keep in my he was only 18 months old at that time. And since he turn a year old he could say full sentences and we use to say how smart he was, because our youngest son was born three days before him and he can say a few words but not speak the way this little boy does. Anyways he was starting to tell his parents he kept seeing sissy and he would say her full name. Now she is their first born child that died at the age of 5 months old, 10 years ago. They never talk about her but then why would you even try to tell an 18 month old about a big sister he has that died. He's just to young to comprehend. So he starts seeing her and playing with her, and then he starts seeing the spirits of my husbands grandparents that passed away. But with this good he is also seeing bad, and because I witnessed the things that were going on in their house and I saw things in that house. You could not imagine the hurt you feel when you see a child that young being terrorized by demons. We stayed at their house one night and just to witness and see what went on, I was never scared but I was hurting for this little boy. What did they want with him?

     Turns out the woman who they bought the house from had a child that died at a young age, as in still a baby. And she just decided to go and try and raise him from the dead. And then began to hold séances in the house. They didn't know about this up until about 3 weeks into what was going on. So because they didn't have the strongest of faith they turn to a paranormal investigation team. Which they found things in the house, recorded voices, and communicated with the spirits. But the one thing that stuck out to me was that these people said their was a "portal" in the house and it was positioned underneath baby's crib. So as a catholic I turn to my mother and me and my husband we're like is that possible? She did not believe so, but things only got worse, so bad to the point of they had to evacuate their home. That's where my husband and I stepped in. I finally had enough tears and made the decision to seek out a priest to help them.

     Our meeting with the priest of our church went rather well. We told him everything and we were risking a lot not to sound crazy, because basically that's what we sounded like when we talked about everything. But once we told him about the woman and the séances and ask about the portal. He said oh yes there are portals in this world. So he told us they needed to either bless the home or have a house exorcism basically. He then sent us out to retrieve medals we would need to hang all throughout there house in the door ways of every room. Miraculous and St. Benedict. We did and brought them back and he blessed them for us, and then gave us some holy water and holy salt, to put in the home. Which we did, and they had a priest in their town who has a gift of reading souls come into their home and bless it. And thus the spirits are gone. For now, I hope for always.

 

An Unexpected Friend and Mentor

   So as all this was taking place, a dear friend of mine got us in touch with a woman she knew who's son was possessed at a young at (in the teenage years) and needed an excorsism. She then met with my husband first, talked to him, gave him some advice on what to do. She also as he said put her hand on him and said a prayer to awaken the Holy Spirit in him. I dont know what she did because I wasnt there but I know when he came home he was changed as so to say. So hearing everything my husband was telling me about her experiences, I just had to meet her. And I was warned that people think shes crazy because of the way she talks, but I know deep down I am ten kinds of crazy so I didnt think it would be that bad. And I mean we sat for two hours just listening to this woman, and I could have sat all night if I could and just listen to her.

   She is a caticism teacher, but the way she teaches is by her experiences, and she teaches you like we probably really should be hearing. Like when the end is coming and Jesus comes back, and we need to be prepared becaues it will be a battle in the end. This woman can do things and she has experienced things and still does that I can't even begin to explain. But I left that meeting touched, and thinking we'll she is just teaching the way we really should be learning. Little did I know she was brought into our lives for a reason and would become someone who we highly respect and love to be around.

  
   Now out of ALL this I have explained you can of course imagine that I said alright this is a sign that our lives need to change drastically and for ever. And so begins the new journey in our lives.